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[15 Dec 2003|06:45am] |
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Hmm havent updated in 4 days. Wont be on for a week maybe or Friday. :[ Exams this week >:o That sucks big butt. I have to study, and the only thing I'll get on for is my emails.. So email me :[ jgirl_sb_2002@msn.com Yay, I better have some O.o Friday went to Erick's <-- haha add that k! Hung out w/ them.. Saturday, hung around the house.. and went somewhere I forgot lol..Yesterday was my B-day. Had fun I guess. Went to the movies. Saw Honey. Good movie. Wikkid funny.. Lol.. Destiny ate all my pixie sticks :[ haha. Well talk to u in a week.. cya <3
<3, JamJam
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| Strawberry Night Sky <3 |
[11 Dec 2003|06:43am] |
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Hey, Well Its really early and I decided to show you my song I wrote last night. I hope you all like it, and leave me some comments if you do <3 :]
<3, Jamie
Strawberry Night Sky
We talked of many things that night
The night I wont ever forget
The night I will remember
For the life ahead of us..
I remember sitting there holding your hand
Whispering back and forth
Kissing your neck
Loving you for everything and nothing more
And for the way you were and the way you are.
[Chorus]:
The strawberry night sky
oh how much I miss you
Just take my hand and..
Lets dance
Dance among the stars so high
Dance among the clouds above us
Oh lets see
Lets See how far this will last
Lets See how far we can dream
Oh lets dream
Lets dream of fairytale lands
Lets dream to believe
And when we believe, believe me this I do
Believe me when I say
When I say, I Love You
Letting the sun go down
Laying there with you I remember
Running through my head
I cant think of anything else
It started to rain that night
Do you remember?
My lips touched yours, and the tears of the rain
Shed down my cheeks
And you loved me, and I know you did
[Chorus]
And when we believe, believe me this I do
Believe me when I say
When I say, I Love you
So please, take my hand
I promise this I wont let go
Its one last chance..
Lets just dance..
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| I Hope You Dance <3 |
[10 Dec 2003|05:26pm] |
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Gosh, Today was a good day.. Everyone was commenting on my hair and how I looked :] aww Emmy and Jc.. woop you 2 are so cute together <3 Yay and I wrote Eric a letter today.. I sent out my Christmas cards.. If You dont get one and you want one.. Just tell me so I can send you one :] OMG Christie's B-day/Christmas Card is soooooo cute :[ I wanted to keep it but my mom was like "just send it" we were fighting lol.. Haha and I sent out Mel's and Kelz's Christmas gifts.. and Olivia's.. :o My b-day is in 4 days.. well 3 from tomorrow ^_^ I cant wait.. Woop.. Well Im gonna go and talk to some people then do my project.. well Some of it and thennn Study.. Because I have a test tomorrow :o daaaamn.. Ok well ttyl payce..
<3, Jamie aka Butthole ;]
<3 Nicholas <3
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[10 Dec 2003|06:57am] |
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Happy B-day Riz!.. Well yesterday :].. I told you already.. Hmm me and Annie are friends again.. Im happy about that. Me and Eric are gonna be hanging out more and more. And im somewhat happy about that. Summer.. you cant rap so dont even try.. haha We lost yesterday. >:[ Against Mike's team.. and that is what makes it worse.. Mike is a butthole ;] and Saturday im gonna kick your short ass haha.. anyways.. I gotta go do my hair O.o and get ready for gay school..ttyl..
Mel, if you read this.. did that server work?
<3, Jamz
I Love You Nicholas
email me back :o!
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| Im So Into You... |
[08 Dec 2003|03:56am] |
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Its like 4 in the morning and I couldn't sleep. Im just like blah. I dont wanna go to school. Im sick again. Ugh.. Oh well. :X I didnt know my watch wasnt waterproof rofl.. And I had forgot that I had it on in the shower.. Haha. Oh well.. Hmm my birthday is next sunday. Well.. anyways.. Why dont some people just like.. forget Im in your life? I mean really.. I find it kinda of amusing. But oh well. Thats just how some people are. I could walk away from this and forget it never happened.. Well Nick, I Love You.. Hmm
It started off so sweet and innocent, everything was so perfect.
You told me you how beautiful I was, and how you loved me so,
there were never any arguments until you started letting go.
Things all changed one very day,
You told me things were different and they had to be your way.
There wasn't anything i could do, then you said...
"If I wanted to be with someone I swear it'd be you"
I wanted to hold you so much.
I wanted to feel your touch.
I didn't just want to be friends I couldn't except that
I missed you so much.
My sky's turned dark dark blue, not the beautiful blue I once saw in you.
Now I know we're finally through.
Scream because I was scared
Scared of what was real
Scream because I could
Because of what I could feel...
<3Nick<3
<3, Jamie
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[07 Dec 2003|05:24pm] |
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Hey, This weekend has been fun. And now its Sunday.. and this whole week im gonna be studying for freakin exams.. Geez how much fun is that gonna be. Well Im bored now and Im listening to Riz rap.. its fun. we are having a fun time kinda.. since Ben left it got boring.. now im talking to him on msn. Im mad/confused just about anything..and everything.. w/e.. I wish I could just.. die.
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[06 Dec 2003|12:00pm] |
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Hmm, Today im going to Sarah's and filming that gay movie again.. then Im going to Eric's and staying there til 12 like I did last night or maybe longer :].. He's so awesome and fun to hang out with. And I love hanging out with my sister. Its so much fun. I had fun last night, went to Crystal's picked her up.. went to the parade, hung out with amanda, kayla and sara.. Then went to BK for my sister then left and went to Crystal's then went to get a tree.. THEN went to Eric's and Scotty's house :] I saw Nathaniel.. Aww Ive known that kid forever.. and Mitchell too <3 My first bf.. in like kindergarden and 1st grade.. Lol.. Well when we were there, we all hung outside for a while then went in and they showed us "The Light Show".. Scotty's better at raving then anyone else, well out of 5 guys there.. Then Eric wouldnt stop dancing on me >:/ and He like would rub up against me and do all this shit.. Omg he's so fun to be around. <33333333 Gosh I cant wait til tonite.. Gonna be the BEST! Well im gonna go talk to Marcie ^_^ shes sick :[.. Ok cya.
<3, Jamie
p.s. Nick im sorry :[ I love you, dont be mad
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[05 Dec 2003|06:31am] |
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O-m-G, I gotta sneeze but it wont come out? Heh, I didnt go to freakin softball yesterday because my friends wanted me to do a movie with them for Drama.. So im stuck doing that.. Then tonite is Friday YAY! And we have the parade.. going to that.. hanging out w/ Katlin and them :] Then hanging out with Kayla, Amanda and Sara and me and Jessica are gonna walk behind the parade Rofl.. thats gonna be so fun..and then Me my sister and her friends are gonna go pick up Katlin and take her with us to my sister's friends.. then we are gonna get drunk yey! :] and thennn I come home and Im..stdrunkoned? lol maybe.. Ugh I gotta make Jessica a card in like 2 mins :] Because im nice like that... Lol Ops, Last night I didnt come back online cuz I had lots and lots of Hw and I fell asleep at 9 anyways :S Hmm what else is going on.. Saturday Im going BACK to sarah's to do the movie again.. and then im going to see Honey :] <33333 W/ Kayla, Amanda, Lisa, Sara and just about everyone on the dance team rofl.. and all other peoples.. Gonna be a great time.. :] No more popcorn fights >8] OMG that was the funniest thing in the Cat in the Hat..LOL! Ok well im gonna go get ready and make Jessica's card.. HAPPY B-DAY JESSICA!.. Lol.. Byes<33333
<3, Jamie
p.s. I Love You Nicholas Richard <3 ;]
You'll always be a part of me
I'm part of you indefinitely
Boy don't you know you can't escape me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Ooh darling 'cause you'll always be my baby
woo, my song to *HiM* :] <3 I love you
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[02 Dec 2003|06:12pm] |
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------------------GENERAL INFO------------------
Starting time: 6:13 pm
Name on birth certificate: Jamie Estelle Johnston
Nickname: Jamal, Jamie Turtle, JamieJames, Bootseroni..etc.
Age: 15 [almost]
Birthday: December 14, 1988
School: Sebring High School
Location: Sebring, FL
e-mail: jgirl_sb_2002@msn.com
Colour of eyes: Blue
Hair: Lightbrown
shoe size: 9 1/2
brothers/sisters: 1 brother[Josh] 1 sister [Jennie]
who do you live with: My mom and sister
------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
Been so drunk you blacked out: Yup :X Well Ive Been Wikkid Drunk Before
Missed school bcus cuz it was raining?: Umm O.o No?
Missed the bus?: Lmao.. Yes
Put a body part on fire for amusement: yea
Car accident: nope
Kept a secret from everyone: yup
Had an imaginary friend: Yeah, Herbert :]
Wanted to hook up with a friend?: Yeah but it was a guy...
Cried during a movie: Yeah.. Umm Alot of em.. mostly A Walk To Remember :[
Had a crush on a teacher: Eww No!
Ever thought an animated character was hot: Bedtime Bear fo sho! :D
Been on stage: yea
Cut your hair: Yeah
Been sarcastic: Yeah O.o
------------------FAVOURITES------------------
Sayings: Suck My Khack -as Mel spells it..Lol
Shampoo: Idk O.o
Soap: Caress
Color: Pink and Black ^_^
Day/night: Nite
Summer/winter: Winter
On-line smiley: Whats this?
Type of underwere: Umm Wtf? Lol..
Lace or satin: Satin
Cartoon characters: Bedtime Bear
Fave food: Chinese in Woonsocket, Gotta Love those Brownies..ROFL
Fave advert:....
Fave movie: FINDING NEMO [Squirt ish Mine!!]
Fave ice cream: >8) WOO COTTON CANDY =P Member Mel?
Fave subjects: Lunch :] and Sex-ed
Fave drink: Shirley Temple
Fave person to talk to online: Mel, Caitlin, Megan, Christie, Marcie, Cellee, Nick, Allie.. a whole lot more [I like singing w/ Ben Lol!!]
------------------RIGHT NOW------------------
Wearing: Jeans, Pink Shirt, Pink Belt.. Socks
I'm feeling: Happy
Eating: Nothing
Thinkin bout: Nick <3
Listening to: Music
Watching: the computer screen
----IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
Cried: nope
Worn a skirt: nope
Met someone new? yup
Cleaned your room: nope
Drove a car: no
---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------
Yourself: sometimes... O.o
Your friends: Yeah, when they want me to
Santa: Yeah :[ He ate my cookies
Destiny/fate: not sure
Ghosts: Freaky But Yes :X
UFO's: ROFL! Lol Hell no
-----------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
Like anyone? Yeah
Who have you known the longest of ur friends? Hmm Amanda
Who's the loudest? Katlin, Me, Summer, Amanda, Sara, Kendall, Jessica, Lauren, Chelsi, Chastity.. Haha good times
Who's the QUIETEST: Katie Yarbrough
Who's the weirdest: Katlin :X and TREY! Lol ROFL Sry Guys..
Who do you cry with: Anyone I suppose, Good friends
What's the best feeling in the world: Being w/ my friends :]
Who will respond to this email fastest: Hmm Anyone I hope
Who sent this to you: *BRiTTNi*
Wat is ur opinion on the word false: its true
Ending Time: 6:29 pm
<3, Jamie :]
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[02 Dec 2003|04:39pm] |
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Well, Since Allie is bored. AnD Wants to read something. I thought That I'd make this entry for her I suppose. Hmm.. Really I dont know what to say other then yeh, We've been in like a couple of fights but we've made up. And are good friends again I hope. She's great. Someone you can talk to about anything really :o Hmm Well.. What else is there.. I really dont know :o. Ur just a great friend Allie..
Anyways this is something cute =]
I asked you if I was pretty you said..no
I asked you if I meant anything to you, you said..no
I asked you if I died, would you cry? you said..no
As I started to walk off, you grabbed my arm and turned me around
You said..
"Your not pretty.. your beautiful...
You dont just mean anything to me.. you mean everything to me..
And if you died.. I wouldnt cry.. I would die too."
Well leave the comments..
p.s. Riz, Sorry about not staying up! I Thought You lefted me
<3, Jamie
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[02 Dec 2003|04:03pm] |
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Yay! Finally.. We are starting Softball conditioning o.! It starts Thursday. Though I do have to get my physical like tomorrow? Lol.. Hmm Omg Chastity falling at lunch.. Rofl.. So funny. and Kendall running into me >:[! WELL BEOTCH I'll kick your ass!! Now me and Nick are talking about softball.. And he supposedly played before..Lol.. Omg Today in 5th period.. LOL! Me and Amanda lookin at Ashley like she was stupid.. haha soooo funny. :O! Gifted meeting tomorrow >:[ I hate those damn things.. They are so boring. But we HAVE to go. Well I dont but I still do to get out of the lesbian's class :X Ok well im gonna go and talk to Nick for a while then go do my piles and piles of homework. Yey! What fun! Ciao
<3, Jamie
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[01 Dec 2003|11:49pm] |
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Well I didnt go to school today. I was really sick but I think im better :o Maybe not gonna find out tomorrow. Christmas parade is friday. =] I cant wait. Katlin~ You better meet me there >:o! Hmm Then exams are soon =] I cant wait for those either. Im not gonna study >8] Well maybe. Hmm Marcie thanks for writing about me =P it was sweet ^ _ ^
Allie has something really good in her journal so read it. Its wikkid long but good. <3 www.livejournal.com/~okaywhatsplanb GO THERE NOW! thanx ;] Well gtg <3 Nick <3
<3, Jamie
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[30 Nov 2003|03:09pm] |
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Hey.. ugh Im so sick. I didnt do nothing today. Or yet cuz I dont feel good. I havent ate anything.. and I need some sleep.
I hope I get better..
I think I have the flu :[
<3, Jamie
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[29 Nov 2003|04:36pm] |
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I may never get to hold you, so tight.
I may never get to kiss you, goodnight.
I may never get to look deep in your eyes,
Or so it seems.
I always will be wishing you were mine,
And think about what could be, all the time.
All the happiness that I can find.
Baby, a girl can dream.
Nick, Im so glad we are together. No one can get in the way of us now. Ty for the website :] [goes cam, pokes and runs away] :P Got ya ^_^ Its rediculous how happy you make me and how much you make me smile. Im just so great to have you in my life. I Love You Nicholas Richard <3
<3, Nick's Supergirl :P
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[29 Nov 2003|09:45am] |
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Nick, If you read this. This one is for you. I Love You Nick and only you. I dont love anyone else. Ugh. Serious. I mean, Why would I hurt you again? Dont you think I learned that the hard way? I dont want to hurt you or anything. I love you... But somehow its hard to understand that.
<3, Jamie
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[29 Nov 2003|01:19am] |
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Hey, Ok.. I dont know anymore. Its just if you wanna tell me you can...All we need is trust in this world. Or wait. Peace. We need some fucken PEACE doods. <3 Okies well im gonna go sorry so short. Just confused. Tired. Cold. Im sorry.
<3 Nick <3
<3, Jamie
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~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+~+
Out of every guy I meet, no other can compete
I'd ditch em all for a night with you.
I know you don't believe you mean this much to me
But I promise you that you do.
If I had one wish this is what it would be...
I'd ask you to spend all your time with me,
That we'd be together forever.
We'd buy a small house in south central L.A.
Raise lots of kids then we'd both join a gang
Just as long as we're together.
Nick, I Love You and Only you forever.
<3, Jamie
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[28 Nov 2003|07:50pm] |
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Hey, :o My last entry I did was at 4:20 pm LOL I didnt do that on purpose either haha <3 Thats awesome. Well.. HE wont talk to me because I dont know why. and he hates me.. and She doesnt like him [I dont think] and She doesnt want to hurt me.. OMG this is confusing.. ugh.. I wish their was something to explain all this Im feeling.. O.o I wish someone could tell me what my mind is trying to tell me or really what my heart is trying to tell me.
<3 Mickey, Im gonna steal your niece >:] She's so precious. lol I was dancing on cam for Emz earlier. She liked that >8] And now im gonna go bug her and some other people...
Wait.. my remix.. to this song..
She dropped you off I followed her home...
Then I stood outside her bedroom window
Standing over her she begged me not to do
What I knew I had to do
cause I'm SO in love with you...
Heh.. Dont be mad at me </3
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[28 Nov 2003|04:20pm] |
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I got this email from my friend Brittni :] I LOVE YOU GIRL!!!
Somewhere between the *procrastination* and the homework..
and the incessant forwards
and the friendships and the calls
to each other complaining about CrUsHeS and
BF/GF!! Somewhere between the phone calls to old
friends and the "I miss you's", the "I love you's" and
the "What are we doing tonight's?" And somewhere
between all of the changing and growing...
somewhere between the classes and the skipping
classes...and the StUdYiNg for teStS...And the
PRETENDING to "StUdY" for TeStS...
And the downright NOT StUdYiNg for TeStS...
I forgot--I forgot what ScHooL was all about.
Somewhere between all the appointments, starbuck coffee,
and Mc Donald's... paying bills and then not paying bills...
Making plans then breaking plans... Appearing, Disappearing,
then reappearing... I forgot--I forgot what it was like to cry.
I forgot that pretending to be happy doesn't make you
happy... And that pretending to
be SmArT doesn't make you smart .. I forgot
that you can't just forget the past in
fear of the FUTURE...
I forgot that you
can't control falling in LoVe..
And that you can't make yourself fall in *LoVe*
.... I learned that I can LOVE... I
learned that it's okay to MEsS UP....
And it's okay to ask for HELP!!!.. And it's
okay to feel like crap... I learned it's okay to cOmPLaiN
and wHINe to all your friends for a whole day........
I learned that sometimes the things you want
most you just can't have and the things that
you look for are right in front of you.
I learned that the greatest thing about
HiGh ScHOoL and CoLLeGe and the working world
it isn't about the parties or the
DRiNKiNG or the Hookups ...
It's the *FrIeNdShIpS*, which means taking chances.
I learned that sometimes the things we want to forget
are the things which we most need to talk about...
I learned that TIME and LOVE can heal all things...
I learned that just when you think it can't get worse - it does! ...
but with the love and support of friends - you survive...
I've learned that when you start feeling BaD
about L O S I N G touch and about those that you've lost!
They too, are feeling the same way....
I learned that letters from friends are the
most important things. And that sending cards to your
friends makes you feel better! But, basically, I just learned
that my friends........ Both old and new..... are the most important
people to me in the world AND.......without them, I wouldn't be who
I am today.....
~~Those are to my friends.. old and new. Good or bad.. etc.. If we've been in fights. Im sorry. If Ive helped you in bad situations and you've helped me.. Thank you. Thank you for making me who I am today~~
I Love You All. <3
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